What Have I Done !

OK i know it's been forever since i last Posted something. I don't even have a good reason why i haven't been writing like i know i should. Even if i don't have any followers i should tell write ; even if it's to say I'm have a shity day . 

Speaking of shity days i have been having a lot of those. Lets see Where to Start. 

• I moved out of a city i loved for what i don't really know 
• I think / Know that my friend's boyfriend is cheating and i don't know how to break the news or know if i even should
• I'm back to  being single / which isn't such a bad thing bad GOSH !
  
• I havent made up my mind let about moving back to Milwaukee or moving out to California 

Shity Shity Shity I dont know i'm not saying its all been bad . I mean i did get to see a place i've need been before . I started writing poetry again which has been going great so far . I have a great job and i hear those are hard to come by now a days. 

I just have to keep at the back of my mind 

DONT WORRY AT THE END OF THE YEAR WE ARE BLOWING THIS  POPSICLE STAND !

P.s Any tips on how to stick to your DIET !

LIFE IS TO SWEET....PLEASE GO GET TESTED

I did this video on December 01, 2008 for World Aids Day

You would see something BEAUTIFUL

Sooo....Its 12:25 and I'm up i have to be at work at 10-am , and i know i blogged earlier today but i wasn't doing anything but watching SVU. I'm kind of shocked i'm signed into Yahoo Messenger , its like a drug to me. I've been thinking i should share this Blog with friends, or with my Youtube Subscribers , but i want to not to be able to talk about stuff that i want to . Because i would be worried how people see me . I'm 22 years old and i've been so much in my life. And now i feel that its better out than in . So this will be my diary. And who ever comes across this little blog , i hope you stay and read and relate .  Sometimes i will be all over the place in my thinking , cause thats me in real life, all over the place. I feel that i have come so far over the years , but it the same time i feel that i haven't come far enough . If someone asked me, if you were to stand at the end of your road and look back , What would it look like ? I would say It first view it would look like a normal road nothing special , a couple of weeds and a flower here and there . But if you looked a little harder You would see something BEAUTIFUL .

You know Why your SINGLE ...RIGHT???

OK this is my first blog and i really don't have anything to say , i mean I'm sitting here listening to the Pussycat Doll - I Hate This Part . I never thought i would start a blog just because i was never on those chicks that could write her thoughts down on paper . I never had a diary , not that i can remember . Theres nothing really special about me ... that i know of . 

Yesterday night around 12.56 my roommate come to my door and said " You know the reason why your single is because you act like you don't need a man and you act like your better than everyone." Don't worry if it was someone else i would have got up and slammed the door in his face , but My Roommate that i will call....Andrew was one of my best friends and its not  like that was the first time that had heard something like that. So i just laughed and said " I don't know what you are talking about , I don't walk around with my nose in the air,but your right ....right now i don't need a man in my life .. that the last thing on my list right now. I have so much more that i have to worried about , other than some man. And plus right now im not happy with my body right now i have gained alot of weight . "

And than he went on to say that " You think no-one wants to be with you because you are plus size , but i know alot of guys that say you r cute and your size is not a problem ." I looked at him as if something foul smelling hit me up side my head,not only does he not have any other friends , but he knows NO ONE i am his inner circle. So than i tried to ended the convo with ...It Takes a Strong man to love a PLUS SIZE WOman ! and he just walked away this confused look on his face ...After about 30 minutes he comes back and asks what do you mean by that ...and i just go into this whole thing about how alot of guys , are so worried about how others view them , and what there friends would say when they found out they were dating a Plus size chick . As if something was wrong , and all they would want is to date you from there living room couch !